zan dauka ba kuma sai na dauka dan inji me zai ce min sai yace "Oxford din ce kenan" na danyi tunani. I need a break gaskiya, from Sadauki and from my family. Maybe in nayi nesa da Sadauki zaifi tabbatar wa cewa da gaske nake maybe rashina yayi breaking dinsa. Sadauki loves me, and that love shi nake relying on. Nace "Yes, Oxford din ce" ya danyi shiru sannan yace "na gaya miki tuntuni, I can't do abinda kike fada. Ki bar maganar Saghir, he deserves halin da yake ciki" nace "deserves? Sadauki Allah ne fa kadai yasan waye yayi deserving kaza wate baiyi ba, Allah ne kadai yake judging mutane akan laifuffukan su ba wai mu bil'adama masu tarin laifuffuka ba, Saghir yayi laifuffuka na sani, Alhaji Babba ma haka, amma Allah shi zaiyi judging dinsu bamu ba. Me yasa ba zamu zamanto masu yafiya ba saboda muma Allah ya yafe mana?" Sai yace "Allah yana judging wadansu ta hanyar wadansu. Wanne department din za'ayi miki applying for?" Nayi shiru. I had been thinking about that for years na kasa tsayar da shawara sai a ranar da Saghir ya bani takarda ta, a ranar da na samu freedom dina, a ranar ne na yanke shawarar abinda zan karanta. Law.

"Law" na fada masa. Yace "wow. But why law" nace "nayi tunani, kusan duk abinda ya same ni a rayuwa, tun daga auren dolen da akayi min har zamana a gidan sa da rabuwar mu ta farko da karbar Subay'a da yayi da farko. Duk wadannan sun faru ne saboda abu guda daya. Saboda rashin sanin yancin kaina da banyi ba. Alhaji Babba a both musulunci da kuma a dokar kasa bashi da right din yi min auren dole. Ko da mahaifin daya haife ni ne bashi da wannan right din sai dai zan iya yi masa biyayya dan in samu lada amma ina da option din cewa 'no'. Zaman da nayi a gidan Saghir, wahalhalun da nasha wadanda suka yi kokarin lalata both rayuwata ta duniya da kuma ta lahira duk sun faru ne a saboda bansan yancin kai na ba balle in nemi rabuwa da Saghir, both matsayi na na musulma da kuma matsayina na yar Nigeria sun bani yancin zabin wanda nake so in zauna dashi a matsayin mijina, na tuna rabuwar mu ta farko lokacin da ya dauke Subay'a ya tafi da ita da irin halin dana tsinci kaina a ciki saboda rashinta, shima wannan duk ya faru ne saboda bansan yancina ba, ba kuma ni da courage din fighting for my right dan shari'a ni ta bawa rikon ?ata, ko da mutuwa nayi rikon Subay'a baya hannun Saghir sai dai a bawa Inna, wannan itace Shari'a ta gaskiya. Amma rashin sanin yancin kai da matan hausawan mu suke fama dashi shi yasa ake tauye musu islamic and constitutional rights dinsu"

"Wannan shi yasa nayi deciding in karanta law, dan in samu damar tsayawa duk wata yarinyar da iyayenta ko marikanta zasu tursasa ta gurin auren wanda bata so, dan in tsayawa duk wata matar auren da take zaune da abusive husband kuma take son rabuwa dashi, dan in tsaya in tabbatar iyaye mata sun samu right dinsu da ubangiji da kansa ya basu na karbar rikon yayayensu a lokacin rabuwar aure ko kuma lokacin mutuwar miji. Wannan shine zai zama role dina a society"

Yace "Masha Allah. I am very proud of you Diyam. Kuma ki sani ina tare dake tun daga farko har karshe".

Na fahimci cewa Sadauki shi ko a jikinsa da nayi suspending auren mu nace sai na gama karatu. Shi dai kawai in dai Saghir zai cigaba da zama a prison shikenan. Da nayi kokarin yi masa complain cewa bama so nake tunda bai damu da aurena ko rashin aurena ba sai yace "you have no idea how much I want to marry you. This is just a phase we are going through. Am sure zaki chanja mind dinki along the way, in ma baki chanja ba I will wait har ki gama din ki dawo".

Wato ni ina depending on son da yake yi min cewa zai sauko ya chanja shawara ya fito da Saghir saboda muyi aure shi kuma yana depending on son da nakeyi masa yana saka ran zan sauko in bar maganar Saghir muyi aure. Ni dashi aga wanda zai fasa.

Ya gama nema mana admission, kuma mun samu successfully. Anan na fahimci cewa su ba yearly suke bada admission ba kamar in batches suke yi kuma mu namu session din zai fara ne January. Daga nan kuma sai ya shirya ya tafi yaje yayi one week a can ya dawo yace "all set, an samo muku apartment a kusa da school din an kuma ajiye muku mota saboda zirga-zirga. Abinda ya rage miki shine koyan driving" shi ya koya min, ya ajiye duk harkokinsa yake zuwa yana dauka na muna fita koyon mota kuma cikin kankanin lokaci na iya sosai. Zamu yi ta hirar mu amma da zarar nayi masa maganar Saghir zai dauke wuta in ba hakuri na bayar da kuma to sai dai mu dawo gida ranar ba za'ayi koyon motar ba.

Shi yayi min komai na harkar student's visa, muka je Abuja ni da shi da Asma'u. A embassy na UK na hadu da Judith itama tana neman student's visa, daga gaisawa naji yarinyar ta kwanta min muka yi ta hira har na fahimci scholarship ta samu daga program na African Initiative for Governance kuma session din karatun mu zai fara tare ne. Sai na roki Sadauki ya karbar mana visar tare da ita sannan kuma nace mata in mun hadu a can tazo mu zauna tare a apartment din mu.

Bayan everything ya zama set kuma sai na ji duk jikina yayi sanyi. Naji bana son rabuwa da gida, da Inna da Subay'a da Asma'u. Bana son rabuwa da Sadauki. Inna nasamu wadda har lokacin bata daina fushi dani ba akan kin auren Sadauki, nayi mata bayanin manufa ta akan hakan, na nuna mata nima bawai hakan naso ba sai dai hakan nake ganin shine dai dai, sai ta dan sauko, ta saka min albarka sannan tayi min nasiha a game da zaman da zanyi a can.

Ranar tafiya Sadauki ne yazo ya dauke ni muka tafi airport, su kuma yan rakiya ta suka biyo mu a mota daban. A hanya babu wanda yayi wa wani magana a cikin mu har muka je muka yi packing sai kuma muka ci gaba da zama a motar. Can ya juyo yana kallona yace "can you promise me something?" Nima ina kallonsa nace "what?" Sai kuma yayi shiru kamar ba zai yi magana ba sannan yace cikin rikakkiyar murya "zaki tafi jami'a, Oxford, akwai mutane da yawa a can, maza, and you are very beautiful am sure some of them will ....... God, bazan ma iya fadar kalmar ba" nayi murmushi nace "soyayya? I won't. Nayi maka alkawarin Halima ta Aliyu ce. In ba Aliyu ba kuma to babu wani namiji a gaba na" yayi dan murmushi yace "Allah yasa ki rike alkawarin nan. Dan ni yanzu am not sure about you anymore. Tsoro nake ji. Gani nake anya kuwa zan iya wannan zaman jiran kar inje fa zuciyata ta buga" sai nayi dariya nace "tsoro da girmanka" ya juyo and for the first time ya kama hannuna a cikin nasa ya rike yana kallona yace "let's play a little game da zai making everything easier for everyone. Let's make a bet" na girgiza kaina nace "ni kasan bana son wadannan games din naka fa" yayi dariya yace "tsoro kike ji? Tsoro kike ji kar kiyi failing?" Nace "kaima kasan ko sanda muke games din bana faduwa" yace "yes, kina winning, saboda ina barin ki kiyi winning dan kar kiyi kuka" sai muka fara musun cewa ba barina yake ba ni nake winning da kaina sai yace

"let's do this one mu gani. Yanzu in muka rabu a airport din nan in kika sauka a UK, through out your stay har zuwa sanda zakuyi hutu in dai har kika dauki wayarki kika kirani da kanki then nayi winning and I got to decide whether or not zan saki Saghir. In kuma baki kira ni ba har kukayi hutu kika zo gida then kinyi winning kuma zanyi duk abinda kika ce"


?? DIYAM ??

By

Maman Maama

Epidode Sixty Four : A Little Advise

Na dan tsaya ina kallonsa ina assessing maganarsa, yana kallona with a broad smile a fuskarsa, na dauke kai ina lissafi, yes it will make everything easy amma anya zan iya kuwa? Not talking to him for months bayan a yanzu bana iya kwana daya ba tare dana yi magana dashi ba? But the result is really worth it, amma kuma in na fadi fa? In na kira shi fa?.

Na sake kallonsa naga har yanzu ni yake kallo yana murmushi with an unreadable expression a fuskarsa. Na girgiza kaina, it is too risky gaskiya. Sai ya langwabe kai gefe kamar abin tausayi, yana robbing palm dinsa a nawa yace "Please Diyam, shekara biyar tayi yawa. Ba kya tausayina wai ke?" Nayi saurin zare hannuna daga nasa ina yarfarwa kamar wadda wuta ta kona saboda wani blood rush da naji ya taso daga hannun nawa cikin seconds ya zagaye duk jikina. Cikin sarkewar murya nace "okay, okay. Na yarda. It is a deal" ya lumshe idonsa ya bude yana kallon yadda nake yarfe hannuna sai ya miko min nasa hannun yace "let's shake on that" na boye nawa hannun a cikin hijab dina nace "nace na yarda ai, no need to shake kuma" ya daga gira yace "tsoro kike ji?" Sai na dauki handbag dina nace masa "goodbye Aliyu" yayi murmushi yace "till we meet again Halima".

Na fita da sauri daga motar ina harhada hanya, but I felt as if gangar jikina ce ta fito ta bar zuciyata a cikin motar. Nayi kokarin calming down kafin in karasa inda Asma'u take jirana rike da sobbing Subay'a. Na durkusa na rungume ta ina jin tafiyar duk ta fita daga zuciyata, tausayinta naje ji sosai zata zauna without uwa da uba kuma bayan duk suna raye. Sai da muka je bakin departure hall sannan na juya na kalli inda motar Sadauki take, har yanzu yana nan a zaune, bana iya hangoshi amma ina hango duhunsa. A smiled at him, waved my hand sannan na shige.

Murjanatu ce ta tare ni a airport a Oxford. Muka tafi gida tare da ita, sannan washegari ita ta fara kaini school duk da dai itama bakuwar ce amma kasancewar ta fini wayewa da sanin kan al'amurra sai ya kasance ita tayi guiding dina har na kammala duk abinda ake bukata cikin nasara. I tot about Sadauki alot, tun a jirgi nake nadamar taking wannan bet din nasa but what is done has already been done, sai kuma naja damarar ganin cewa nayi winning dan mu samu nutsuwa gabaki daya ni dashi. Nasan shima burinsa shine yaci, kuma yana ganin kamar zaici din saboda yana ganin rauni na, and I decided to show him am strong. At first abin da wahala, musamman in naga kiransa ya shigo sai inji kamar in dauka amma nasan halinsa in na dauka zai iya cewa duk is part of the deal dan haka kiran nasa ma bana dauka. And it really hurts. Kullum babu fashi zai kira ni first thing in the morning, sannan ina dawowa daga school zai sake kira sai dai in naki dauka ya kira Murjanatu ya tambaye ta lafiyar mu ko kuma in muna bukatar wani abu. Kudi kuwa kamar ruwa haka ya sakar mana su, ina so in masa complain ince kudin sunyi yawa amma ina tsoron kar yace yayi winning.

Most of the times in suna waya da Murjanatu sai in yi ta straining kunnena wai dan in jiyo muryarsa, wani lokacin kuma shi da kansa zai ce ta saka a handsfree yayi ta yi min magana amma sai in ki yin maganar duk a tsoron kar yace yayi winning "please Diyam, please, please kiyi min magana" amma na daure na cije na cigaba da ignoring dinsa hoping wannan ta zama karshen wahala ta. Gani nake yi taimaka wa Saghir da nake so yayi shine zai gyara image dinsa a gurin family dina, kuma ina hopping hakan ya zamanto sanadiyyar daidaituwar al'amura a cikin family din. And Subay'a. Ina so in aure na ya kasance Sadauki Subay'a ta rike shi a matsayin uba ba wai matsayin enemy ba, wannan shine zai tabbatar da zaman lafiya a tsakani na da shi. Sannan taimaka Saghir zaiyi softening heart dinsa ya zamanto mai yafiya ga wanda ya munana masa sannan mai tausayi ga na kasa dashi, wannan kuma zai kara kusantashi da mahaliccin mu. Dan haka ni a ganina duk abinda nake yi ina yinsa ne domin Sadauki.

And then he tricked me into calling him and also found out about Bassam. And now he is angry. Nasan kishi yakeyi dan nasan yana da kishi sosai, ni kuma har cikin zuciyata ba wai ina kula Bassam bane saboda wata alaka ta soyayya, na fara kula shi saboda in goge haushina da yake ji, and we became friends, sai kuma na lura cewa shi Bassam din ya fara developing feelings for me wannan shi yasa nayi deciding in yanke alakar mu tun kafin abin yayi nisa but the decision was made late, dan already Sadauki yasan maganar Bassam ba kuma na son yazo yayi wani abinda ba dai dai ba. Ban kashe wata wutar ba bana son a kunno min wata.

Wannan ne yasa na yanke shawarar bawa Bassam labari ne dan ya fahimci dalilin yanke alaka ta dashi, dan yasan waye Sadauki da kuma alaka ta dashi, sannan kuma ina hoping labari na zai taimaka masa wajen solving family issue dinsa kuma maybe zai iya bani shawarar yadda zan bullowa crises din Sadauki da Saghir.

(Now, some people need to re-read episodes 1-10. Diyam is in love with wanda yake kiranta. Kuma ba labari take bawa Bassam ba, she is going over the story a kanta kafin ta bashi. Lol)

Bassam yace "ina jinki. Ina so inji labarin naki" ta dauke idonta daga kallon ruwan da yake tsiri a fountain, sai ta samu kanta da yin murmushi ganin yadda ya nutsu yana kallonta, tace "ba labari ne mai dadi sosai ba, and get your hanky ready cos you might cry at some point" yayi murmushi amma baice komai ba sai ta bashi labarin ta in summary, asalinta, soyayyar su da Sadauki, mutuwar su Baffa, aurenta da Saghir da yadda sukayi rayuwar auren tsahon shekaru, dawowar Sadauki cikin rayuwarta da kuma mutuwar aurenta ta farko data biyu. Ta bashi labarin a takaice but without missing all the main points da zasu saka ya gane manufarta sosai. Sai kuma ta gaya masa winning din da Sadauki yayi da kuma text din da yayi mata dazu akan Bassam din. Tana bashi labarin yana yi mata tambayoyi a gurin

Baiyi kukan ba kamar yadda ta tsokane shi da, amma idonsa yayi ja fuskarsa ta nuna bacin ransa akan abinda ya faru da ita, abinda bai taba tsammanin yana faruwa a kasar sa har a yanzu ba. Ya kuma jinjinawa jarumtarta dan he can't even imagine a girl of 14 years going through what she went through.

But his heart breaks daya fahimci karfin soyayyar da take tsakanin ta da Sadauki. Yes, da gaske ya fara jinta a zuciyarsa har yana hoping alakarsu will lead to something da zai fitar da khausar daga zuciyarsa. But daga labarin ta ya fahimci cewa cigaba da rike soyayyar ta a ransa will be a wrong move. She is already in love, deeply in love with someone else, just like Khausar.

Ta katse masa tunanin sa ta hanyar cewa "ina fatan ka fahimci duk abinda nake so ka fahimta" ya gyada kai yace "na gane, sosai. Kuma bana jin da akwai wata kalma da zan iya furta miki wadda zata nuna how sorry I am akan abinda kika yi passing through a rayuwarki. It was unfortunate. Kuma bazan iya misalta miki how happy and how important I feel right now da har kika zaunar dani kika bani wannan labarin. Naji dadi sosai, na karu sosai, nayi wa rayuwa kallon da ada ban taba yi mata irinsa ba" tace "thank you, thank you for understanding Bassam" ya sake murmushi yace "nine da godiya, you have no idea how this is going to change my life. My family, I have been taking them for granted duk da irin kauna da kulawar da suka yi kokarin gina min rayuwata a kai, a lokacin dani nayi watsi da supportive family dina nayi kokarin rusa zumuncin dake tsakanin mu saboda budurwar da bama ta sona a lokacin ke kuma kike against mutumin da ya ke miki soyayya ta gaskiya irin aliyu saboda family din da suka yi everything possible dan ganin sun rusa rayuwar ki. You truly are an angel. I now understand the real value of my family, kuma zanyi iyakacin kokari na inga na gyara kuskure na. And like you said, story dinki ya kara nuna min ma'anar true love, it is not feelings like I said. It is much more than that, true love means sacrifice. Kayi sacrificing happiness dinka dan wanda kake so yaji dadi, ka sa farin cikin wanda kake so a sama da naka. Na koyi wannan daga Aliyun ki kuma nima zanyi applying dinsa a case dina da khausar, ina sonta dan haka zan dora happiness dinta a saman nawa, happiness dinta kuma shine kasancewa tare da wanda take so. Am going to let them be, and hope to find my one true love nima watarana".

Tayi murmushi tana jin tausayinsa a ranta, tasan so tasan zafinsa dan haka tasan decision din nasa is not an easy one. But it is for the best.

Tayi ajjiyar zuciya tare da gyara zamanta tace "to saura ni. Ina so inji menene view dinka a game da sharadin dana kafawa Sadauki" ya girgiza kai yace "ni a fahimta ta, daga ke har Aliyu kuna kan gaskiyar